Listening to: It Be’s That Way Sometimes – Nina Simone

I haven’t been able to figure out how to bring this up over the phone, so here it is – I found out last week that my parents are splitting up.

I’m not quite sure what to say about it. Last weekend was awful and I couldn’t have spoken about it if I’d tried, and now I feel a bit numb, I think. It’s all incredibly confusing, not least because I live with them and it came as a complete shock to me – I knew they were unhappy, but not that they were unhappy with each other. So obviously I really have no idea what’s going on with them, and on the surface nothing has really changed yet – they still sleep in the same bed, they go for coffee together in the mornings, and they hold hands while watching TV – but my dad has told my mum that he doesn’t love her anymore, and next week he’s going to move out. My mother is pretty devastated, and I guess my dad has probably had a pretty difficult time leading up to this, and there’s no one to blame or be angry at, and it’s just…awful. But there it is, and I guess things are going to be okay once everyone stops feeling so hurt, right? Whenever that is.

Anyway, I’m so, so sorry; this probably isn’t the sort of thing you should let your friends find out through your blog. This is my first real experience with any kind of grief, and I’m not really sure how to share it.